How do I feel about Sam ? ( The second )

In my last entry I´ve said "silly question" but now I better should say I really don´t know.
I mean I know that I still love him but something was going wrong with us .
The time I realized it , it didn´t make any sense to me .
Three weeks ago he went over to see me every single day and it was all going strong.
But now !!!
Sometimes he doesn´t come to see me for about one week or so and then he also doesn´t reply my messages .
I mean what does this stupid guy think???
I´m too dumb to understand that he is going to split our relationship up..........
I really think so, because he played this sick game all about over five weeks with me and I think, if I don´t have sent him a message which said thats the best idea to split it up, it would last any longer.
Then we would sit in one or two month on my bed and I would say that I love him and then he would smile and say in these sarcastic voice "Of course darling I also love you, your the best thing in my life..."
but in the same moment he thought :
"HAHA what a cute and ingenuous girl.....she really believes that I still loves her HAHA"
BLOODY HELL !!!!
But all in all I just can say that I still love Sam.

And if hes also a pathetic jerk its OK because he will be still MY pathetic jerk.